Padma Lakshmi Pens Op-Ed About Allegedly Being Raped by Her Boyfriend at Age 16
“I am speaking now because I want us all to fight.”
On Friday, September 21, Padma Lakshmi joined the many sexual assault survivors on Twitter explaining the many reasons why they may not have reported their attackers right away, if at all. This #WhyIDidntReport campaign was sparked after President Donald Trump and others cast doubt on allegations that Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh allegedly assaulted a woman when they were in high school. (A second woman came forward with allegations against Kavanaugh over the weekend.) On Tuesday, the Top Chef host followed up her tweets with an op-ed in The New York Times in which she described allegedly being raped at the age of 16 by her then-boyfriend, and explained her decision to open up about it for the first time, 32 years later.
Lakshmi wrote that her boyfriend was 23 when they began dating. “On New Year’s Eve, just a few months after we first started dating, he raped me,” she alleged. “While we were talking, I was so tired that I lay on the bed and fell asleep. The next thing I remember is waking up to a very sharp stabbing pain like a knife blade between my legs. He was on top of me. I asked, ‘What are you doing?’ He said, ‘It will only hurt for a while.’ ‘Please don’t do this,’ I screamed. The pain was excruciating, and as he continued, my tears felt like fear. Afterward, he said, ‘I thought it would hurt less if you were asleep.’ Then he drove me home.”
She wrote that she didn’t tell anyone what had happened, and that she quickly moved from being shocked to feeling like the incident had been her fault. “We had no language in the 1980s for date rape. I imagined that adults would say: ‘What the hell were you doing in his apartment? Why were you dating someone so much older?'” she recalled. She mentioned the sexual abuse she says she underwent at the age of 7, which she’s previously spoken about, and which she said culminated in her being sent to live in India for a year after she told her parents. “The lesson was: If you speak up, you will be cast out,” she wrote in the Times.
“Some say a man shouldn’t pay a price for an act he committed as a teenager. But the woman pays the price for the rest of her life, and so do the people who love her,” Lakshmi continued. “Now, 32 years after my rape, I am stating publicly what happened. I have nothing to gain by talking about this. But we all have a lot to lose if we put a time limit on telling the truth about sexual assault and if we hold on to the codes of silence that for generations have allowed men to hurt women with impunity. One in four girls and one in six boys today will be sexually abused before the age of 18. I am speaking now because I want us all to fight so that our daughters never know this fear and shame and our sons know that girls’ bodies do not exist for their pleasure and that abuse has grave consequences. Those messages should be very clear as we consider whom we appoint to make decisions on the highest court of our land.”