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Everything We Know About Britney Spears’ Memoir, The Woman in Me, So Far

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Britney Spears is finally telling her side of the story. Her memoir The Woman in Me, out October 24th, will tell the “Journey (and) strength at the core of one of the greatest performers in pop music history.” Prior to its release, publications including People obtained excerpts of the book which already featured bombshell revelations on everything from her conservatorship to relationship with Justin Timberlake. Below, everything we know about The Woman in Me, so far.

Her Fallout With Kevin Federline

While the relationship with the dancer started out strong, Spears explained that she saw a “slow motion” change in him over time, caused by fame and money. “When I found him [in Vegas], he had his head shaved,” she said. “He was getting ready to shoot the cover for his album. He was in the studio all the time. He really thought he was a rapper now. Bless his heart—because he did take it so seriously.”

When the two separated, Federline worked to get sole custody of the kids while stories of Spears’ partying circulated the news. Spears now insists she “never had a drinking problem,” despite reports. “I liked to drink, but it was never out of control,” she said, adding the only other thing she did was Adderall, the ADHD medication. “Adderall made me high, yes, but what I found far more appealing was that it gave me a few hours of feeling less depressed.” Still, Federline was successful in blocking Spears from seeing her kids, Sean Preston and Jayden James. “Kevin wouldn’t let me in. I begged him,” she said. “The paparazzi watched it all happen. I can’t describe the humiliation I felt. I was cornered. I was out being chased, like always, by these men waiting for me to do something they could photograph.”

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Support Received From Madonna

Following Spears’ split with Justin Timberlake (which she of course covers extensively in the book), the singer moved into Cher’s former apartment in New York, where she rejected most visitors aside from Madonna. “I needed a little guidance at that time,” Spears said. “I was confused about my life. She tried to mentor me...She told me I should be sure to take time out for my soul, and I tried to do that. She modeled a type of strength that I needed to see.”

Her Marriage to Jason Alexander

In 2004, Spears married her childhood friend, Jason Alexander in Las Vegas, only to have the marriage annulled just 55 hours later. “I was just honestly very drunk,” she revealed in her memoir. “And probably, in a more general sense at that time in my life, very bored.” While Spears considered the incident “innocent fun,” she wrote that her family acted “like I'd started World War III.”

Michelle Williams Is Narrating the Audio Edition

Spears has tapped actress Michelle Williams to narrate the book’s audio edition, explaining that she had a “heart-wrenching” time during the writing process.

“Reliving everything has been exciting, heart-wrenching, and emotional, to say the least,” Spears said in a statement. “For those reasons, I will only be reading a small part of my audiobook. I am so grateful to the amazing Michelle Williams for reading the rest of it.” Williams expressed her support for the musician, saying “I stand with Britney.”

“Soul-Crushing” Conservatorship

In 2008, Spears was placed on a psychiatric hold after and later under a conservatorship by her father, Jamie Spears. “Shaving my head and acting out were my ways of pushing back,” Spears explained. “Under the conservatorship I was made to understand that those days were now over. I had to grow my hair out and get back into shape. I had to go to bed early and take whatever medication they told me to take.”

She later writes that she felt “infantilized” under the conservatorship and lost her passion for music. “I became more of an entity than a person onstage. I had always felt music in my bones and my blood; they stole that from me.”

“Think of how many male artists gambled all their money away; how many had substance abuse or mental health issues,” she adds. “No one tried to take away their control over their bodies and money. I didn’t deserve what my family did to me.”

Relationship With Justin Timberlake

Spears remembers her The Mickey Mouse Club days where she met Christina Aguilera, Ryan Gosling, and Justin Timberlake, who she later formed a romantic relationship with. She recounts their first kiss as “A Janet Jackson song was playing in the background,” as well as a “difficult” decision in 2000 to have an abortion after learning she was pregnant.

“It was a surprise, but for me, it wasn’t a tragedy,” she writes. “I loved Justin so much. I always expected us to have a family together one day. This would just be much earlier than I’d anticipated. But Justin definitely wasn’t happy about the pregnancy. He said we weren’t ready to have a baby in our lives, that we were way too young.”

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Elsewhere in the book, Spears admits to cheating on the singer with choreographer Wade Robson. "We were out one night and we went to a Spanish bar,” she said. “We danced and danced. I made out with him that night.” Spears blamed the incident on being young, and she admitted it to Timberlake who was able to move past it. Throughout there three-year relationship, though, Spears says Timberlake cheated on her multiple times. “I was so infatuated and so in love, I let it go, even though the tabloids seemed determined to rub my face in it,” she said.

We now understand why sources are saying that Timberlake is “concerned” about Spears’ memoir.

2001 VMAs Performance

Spears also opened up about how scared of the snake she was during her iconic 2001 performance of “I’m a Slave 4 U” during the MTV Video Music Awards.

“All I knew was to look down, because I felt if I looked up and caught its eye, it would kill me,” she penned. “In my head I was saying, ‘Just perform, just use your legs and perform.’ But what nobody knows is that as I was singing, the snake brought its head right around to my face, right up to me, and started hissing.” She explained the moment of aggression wasn’t shown on TV, but it understandably spooked her. “I was thinking, ‘Are you fucking serious right now? The fucking goddamn snake's tongue is flicking out at me. Right. Now,’” she said. “Finally, I got to the part where I handed it back, thank God."

Relationship With Her Mother, Lynne Spears

Spears’ parental relationships receive outsized attention in the memoir, where she discusses her often strained relationship with her mother, Lynne Spears.

“We called our cocktails ‘toddies,’” she writes. “I loved that I was able to drink with my mom every now and then. The way we drank was nothing like how my father did it. When he drank, he grew more depressed and shut down. We became happier, more alive and adventurous”

She Almost Starred In The Notebook

Although Spears is best known for her music, she did have a short career as an actress in the early aughts—appearing in Crossroads, an experience she said “wasn’t easy” due to “what acting did to my mind.” She later goes on to say that she was up for another role in The Notebook.

“The Notebook casting came down to me and Rachel McAdams, and even though it would have been fun to reconnect with Ryan Gosling after our time on the Mickey Mouse Club, I’m glad I didn’t do it,” she explained. “If I had, instead of working on my album In the Zone I’d have been acting like a 1940s heiress day and night.”

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